From finger paints to Picasso

I’m gonna make this one short folks….


I was reading something just now about how a child in elementary school had a 4.0 for the second semester in a row (let me also point out that this child was a first grader).  While I am always one to support those who excel in academics I think that this is kind of ridiculous.

First of all because there is even a grading system like this in elementary school….like seriously.  Even now, I look back at report cards from kindergarten and there was actually grades on there; not just comments a simple Pass/Fail, but legit grades *Of course I had all A’s but still*  Why at that low of a level should GPAs even matter?  I can’t even truly wrap my mind around it mattering in middle school quite honestly.  

I think grades should only become relevant really in high school and college when you need them for scholarship purpose.  I mean seriously?  If i was in elementary school or middle school still and somebody told me ‘you need to maintain a 3.0 on a 4.0 scale’ Id look at them mofos like they was crazy.  What ever happened to giving a smiley face sticker and keeping it moving?  Or for every good report you do you got a golden sticker; to be rewarded at the end of the term?  

These people sitting here stressing they’re kids out trying to live they’re dreams through them.  ‘Little Johnny has to keep a 4.0 all throughout elementary school so he can get into the BEST Law School in the country’  

Forget that junk man…its nice to have dreams for your children and its good to want to see them excel in areas; especially if you know you didn’t but in all honesty I think it’s getting a little out of hand; children are losing their essence.

*and I think I pretty much lost the angle I was trying to go for but oh well…*



The Last to Know



So its come to my attention as of late that apparently I’m a *hipster*.  hmmmm…. that’s surprising  but tell me, why am I the last to know about this?  My brother says “I mean, have you seen yourself?  You’re whole ora screams hipster.”  he then proceeded to compare me to his roommate who also is apparently a hipster <but i’m sure he was aware of his allegations   So I asked my other siblings; my sister said it started second semester of our freshmen year in college but it just happened so smoothly.  Apparently my multiple piercings and tattoos throw me in this category, along with my vegetarianism, Buddhism  and choice of fashion.  And my other brother says “I thought you were doing it on purpose” I mean I was doing it on purpose; not trying to appear as a hipster….I just liked how I looked and everything else just made sense to do cause I couldn’t get with everything, it didn’t appeal to me.   

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Of course I wasn’t trying to hear that…i mean look at all the definitions out there; so much hearsay it’s impossible to truly determine if one is really a hipster isn’t it?  Because you can’t call yourself a hipster because then you’re just some person ‘claiming’ to be a hipster.  And of course if you’re not calling yourself one then how can you really self-identify?  And then there’s the whole notion of ‘hipster’ being a dirty word….No to mention the debate between identifying as a ‘hipster’, ‘Black hipster’, or ‘Blipster’….

I look at the whole thing and see it basically as how people can describe how someone is dressed, or what kind of stuff <music/art/etc> they’re into.  But a lot of it is just a way for the man to get his hand in our pockets…Being a ‘hipster’ is really kinda played out if you think about it.  All these people who [self-identify] are buying into the capitalist aspects of the culture that have been developed over time; shopping at American Apparel and Urban Outfitters, etc; purchasing overly expensive food and coffee <although I too am guilty of drink Starbucks; only when I’m studying for finals though> and trying to find the next thing to make ‘cool’….I don’t get it myself…..

*Meh… its whatever; not gonna let it define me man.  Still gonna eat my plants, drink my coffee, and hit up the thrift store*




Dating Myself


So I had made up my mind that I was going to go see The Great Gatsby <even if i had to go alone>  …Long story short I ended up going by myself.  And this wasn’t a problem; I was gonna take myself out on a ‘date’.  So I got all dressed up in my best hipster clothes (because apparently I’m a hipster now, more to come later) and I proceeded to leave out on my fabulous date <an damn it i looked good>.  Anyhow, I got to the movies and was walking up looking for my id card and realized I didn’t even have my debit card…silly me so I went back home

But the dates not over <just had to wait for the next show>  Anyway, finally got back out to the movies and whatnot.  It wasn’t half bad actually.  I’d seen the original and read the book in high school so I was trying to remember everything.  This newer version though made me think more along the lines of a “Summer love story” than what I remember; made me kinda wish I could have something like that for a minute.  I will say the end part sucked though <not like legit though, just what happened to homeboy>  (I don’t remember Gatsby dying in the original though) but anyhow has anybody else ever noticed that Leonardo DiCaprio characters always get the short end of the stick in love movies?  *homeboy froze to death in Titanic cause Rose was being selfish and he got shot in this one cause Daisy didn’t know what she wanted….I say there’s a connection here with women named after flowers…*  But anyhow; the movie was good though; I recommend it to be seen; especially if you’ve seen the original and read the book; might draw a closer connection if you couldn’t relate before.  

The Day That Shit Got Real…



So world; today the AMCAS application opened up to the general public.  Today I also officially failed my Organic 2 Class…..As I was sitting there contemplating my life in my head as I signed in to the AMCAS application; I got stressed out all over again….You see world, this won’t be my first time in this predicament…Sadly, I am a “repeat offender”.  I mainly worry because this puts me in an even worse situation for ROTC; I got three times to retake any class and I get the boot <not to mention all the other things that follow that> But I’m really upset about it though; This it the one thing I want to do in life for real and right about now; its being put in jeopardy cause I can’t get my ish together *sigh*  I only hope i got kick ass MCAT scores <which I also have reason to doubt>  

To my knowledgeable people out there: do you think I still have a chance?  Be honest  but no ignorance please (you ain’t even bout that life shawty *in my gangsta voice*) 

Idk man….its just really hard out here for a pimp.  and people say don’t blame the teachers but i say “Fuck that shit” cause this time the teacher really did fail me <no pun intended> and of course I know i share the blame too cause i wasn’t on my shit like i was supposed to be but still….but for reals though, to know that you actually were trying, even if it wasn’t as hard as you could….it hurts a bit

next semester i will (OFFICIALLY) be a senior; which means I have to have my life together 100%; im gonna definitely meditate on it too cause [this-right-here-is-not—-swag] *in my Soulja Boi voice*

Dear bitch…

To the bitch that ‘teaches’ organic chemistry; whose class I mistakenly signed up for….FUCK YOU, and I sincerely and Truely hate your freaking guts….and you better prey i dont ever see you in the street after hours cause if I do, it’s over for you. #TrueShit
So let me tell you what happened in a nutshell world. I’ve been unfortunate enough to have a teacher that’s first of all, dumb as fuck.
(And I may be a little bit more hostile than usual because I’m failing the class but world; there’s more to it than that)
If you see a student is struggling and if that student comes to you on more than one account expressing concern, wouldn’t the polite and logical thing to do be to help that student get a better grasp on the subject? Correct me if I’m wrong…and not only that; yesterday I emailed this woman one last time basically asking her if there was any extra work I could do to raise my grade….she didnt even answer my question, just played dumb like she didnt know what was happening….of course I’m not gonna go too far into a tangent cause today some more ignorant shit went down.
So I had to work in a group for my final microbiology paper (which I didn’t want to do for my own personal reasons but my group insisted) now keep in mind that before today (the due date) we had had this assignment for a month.
Now not only did I get stuck with a dud group, but today as I was gettin ready to turn in the paper one of the girls (who didn’t do anything really in the paper) approached me like “did you finish the paper” (obviously I have it in my hands) “let me see it”….so of course I realize that this simple bitch is tryin to check me Lowkey; tryin to make sure I did stuff right….
How TF you can’t even put together two simple ass paragraphs but wanna check me?!? Does that make any sense? Then the other day we in the library, in fixing stuff, not to mention the sorry excuse for a conclusion she gave me and she wait til I’m literally getting up to leave and ask if I need help….it took everything in me not to choke that ho…

*i need to hurry up and go home before I go to jail*